Before bed, I was feeling mighty sorry for this nation, and myself too.
I was angry …
- Everything our new president does, is protested. Tonight, I watched someone come on a national television show and say that he was like Hitler. I was so disgusted. I mean, he could walk on water and do all sorts of miracles, and he’d be ridiculed. Sound familiar?
- Everything I’ve tried to do for others, is being met with my limitations, even by loved ones – which can really bring one down – and I was really feeling down.
To those of you who know me, know that I suffer from a degenerative disease – Parkinson’s Disease – and have for the last 17 years. I’ve suffered falls because of it, one of which, due to a defective shower bench, caused a bad concussion and traumatic brain injury.
I had a voice that radio loved. Voice-overs were my bread and butter. I could edit audio and video better than most. I could preach a sermon that had people saying, “Wow! That man can preach!” The Parkinson’s controlled by medicine and an operation called Deep Brain Stimulation – yeah, brain surgery.
Today, I walk with a walker – barely – next step, a wheelchair. I’m sitting in it now, and I hate it. My voice is one-tenth what it was, and my enunciation is terrible – I mumble! My wife is deaf in one ear, so it can mean fireworks around here when I talk, and she’s shouting,”What did you say?” louder and louder. Frustrating for her, and for me.
The TBI also means that I’m not as quick as I was once was when it comes to my thoughts and what I want to say. Sometimes putting two words together, or gathering thoughts, can be a challenge. I try to say one thing, and it comes out, and received in the wrong way. I was reminded of that yesterday when I was told, “Maybe you should just not say anything.” Ouch!
On top of that, I had a stroke a little over a year ago.
So yeah – here I was, a mere fraction of what I once was. I went to bed, laying down next to my sleeping wife. I was angry, and feeling mighty sorry for myself.
Then God did what He normally does, He woke me up to use what DO have, my fingers, and His words, to preach in my new way, through these blog posts. He wakes me up at 2, 3 in the morning, tonight it was 12:40 AM. Its going to be a long night, because He usually has me typing until 4:30 or 5 AM
“Yes, I know you’re feeling a bit down, and your enemy is whispering to you how defective you are – even through your loved ones. But even though I’ve allowed you to suffer this, it’s for my glory. It’s to show that I can use anyone – including someone I once used in a glorious way, I still use in a glorious way. That microphone sitting there in its boom holder gathering dust? Leave it there – it’s a reminder to you that I still use your voice, even though it comes out through your fingers and a keyboard now…”
“… and as for those thoughts you have trouble with, just as Moses had trouble, I will give you the words, or a helper to get them out – but get them out you will! You see, I’m not done with you yet. There are still souls to save out there. There’s still sin to call out.”
Our new president’s administration is suffering the same thing. It’s satanic affliction – Spiritual Warfare. You see, liberals today have no real God to worship. Their god is “globalism” and “George Soros”. Mention the name of Jesus and they turn into raving lunatics – this, my friend, is the devil. Seriously, find a liberal friend, and mention Jesus’ name, and if they go off the rails, gather your armor and reinforcements, because you’re dealing with the enemy, and you’re being prepped for battle in the spirit realm.
For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. (Ephesians 6:12)
Donald Trump, Mike Pence and their young administration, are fighting a spiritual battle of epic proportions. It’s breathtaking to watch – and God’s helping them win. Just when you think they’re down and out, they’re back – and on top.
They have God on their side. and of course, that makes them part of the hated “religious right” – so be it. God has given this nation a reprieve. God’s people prayed fervently for His mercy – and we repented – and God’s bringing revival. It’s making the godless liberals so angry.
For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ, being ready to punish every disobedience, when your obedience is complete. (2 Corinthians 10:3-6)
Their horse lost – she was supposed to win – but she lost! How? The fix was in – the polls all said so! It’s simple, God will not be mocked, and He will not allow the devil to steal what’s in His will.
Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. (Galatians 6:7-8)
The enemy deceives us all. When I was sitting there tonight, re-living what was said to me over the last several days, and generally feeling sorry for myself – that was the enemy deceiving me, and I needed God to snap me out of it. He does that by allowing me to sleep a bit, clear my head, and then giving me stuff to type — preach — to you here.
Sometimes, the stuff I say here hurts those that read it. Maybe God’s trying to tell you something if it does. Maybe He’s convicting you of something. Listen to what He might be saying to you – with that “still small voice”. God, through the Holy Spirit speaks to us, convicting us if needed.
So, our new administration has my full support, and whatever I can do in my power and capacity to assist, I will.
The same goes for my calling. I may not be preaching in the pulpit anymore, but I will pastor from here. I will spread the Gospel – and call out sin – through the written word. As long as I am able — I will use whatever abilities I have left, for the Lord!